Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Thoughts from way past midnight

I was up late, again, like I shouldn't be. It's actualy past midnight, close to 2 am here. Sigh, I went way to long trying to hunt down a good set of audio boks and Bibles, but I finaly hung the computer up and pulled out the Bible. It is s important, yet I save my last little bit of time for it.

Anyway, I was reading in Psalm 67 when my mind wandered off, and I started thinking about love, and all the things I do and know to do. For example, I know the right songs to sing, and love to sing and play guitar, I know that the awsomest form f music is praise and worship, and that God should be the center of attention... But without love, I mean a true love, all my singing and strumming is like, well, sounding brass and tinkleing symbles. (No offense drummers). It's like a love song that was written to a girl the musician didn't even love. (ok, k, I know, there I go again, compairing the spiritual with the romantic). Anyway, I fealt like I should write about it here.

First Corinthians 13:13 says:
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
In chapter 12, verse 30, Paul says:
...and I will show you the most excellent way.

SO I mentioned my music, and equated it to sounding brass and tinkling symbles, like the gift of tounges. And dsay, here, in this very writing, I get things right, and what I'm saying here is true, I can be right without love, I can believe something is true just because it is (which isn't necisarily bad), but what if it is absolutely loveless? See, I believe this is in love, for God, I'm wanting to lve more, but whwat if I was just writing it because it was true, and didn't really want it, like it, or follow it, or want to follow it even? It would be almst like the gift of proffecy in II Cor: 13:2. Say I have lots of Biblical understanding, can answer the questions the best and dfastest, etc. I can tend to be that way, A lot og head knowledge. WHat isit without love? II cor 13:2 I am Nothing. It's wothless.

And the good things I do. Things that are truly good. I go and help the poore, or the orphans in africa (which I want to do), but why/ Is it love for them? God? Do I do somethings out of "duty"? Yeah, I bet. II Cor 13:3 I gain nothing.

I want t have love, in everything I do. I see so much that I need to get right, so many things that are out of place, but trying and stryving to get them right, without the love, is worthless. God wants a relationship, a lover, not an actor.

Think about it. All humans (that are normal) desire relationships, and there are traits that we like and admire in people, weather it be strength, tallent, beauty, inteligense, etc, etc. But we all find ourselves attracted to someone who actualy cairs and wants a relationship. The "perfect" person in the tallent department with no love would soon become very plastic to us, and we would long for a deeper relationship with that person.

Are we plastic with God? Do we do things "just because"? I do.

Hey, lets not focus on what things we're suposed to do, lets focus on WHO we're suposed to LOVE. Let's as God to help us, and I think that as we find ourselves wanting to love Him, we will find ourselves wanting to please Him. After all, you always wanna please your lover. ;)

Another interesting thing to think about, in regards to love, is the thing about loving ourselves, there's this song that plays on the radio that talks about that (Don't worry Carrie, I won't mention any names). Can we love other people if we don't love ourselves, probably not, but who cairs? I don't. Here's where it is truly at (excuse me, but I'm about ready to get really opinionated), Can we love if we don't understand, and know God's love? NO WAY! We can't even begin to love people in a grand way untill we understand God and His love for us.

Matt's late night ramblings.

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Sunday, March 23, 2008

Just some update

Well, where do I start in giving an update?

Happy Resurection Day! Jesus came to earth, God as man, and died for you! Because you can't be good enough to earn your way to heaven! The truth is, none of us can! And if we think we have been to bad to be saved, what we are really saying is that we have to work for our salvation, and that God's sacrifice wasn't good enough! Praise Him for His gift of love on calvary.

Why do we call it calvary? I'm really not sure, but from what I understand, back in the mid evil period, the knights were called the chivalry, which then turned into calvary, but with a code of "chivalry". Of course we all know what chivalry is. Bottom line is that the root word of calvary is chivalry. I would say that what Jesus did for us is very chivalrous and herro-ic.

Last night we went and saw National Treasure 2. It was fun, full of action. But I would have to say the plot wasn't as good as the first one, and that thte ending needed a bit more fenis.

Now to the really, good stuff!

This morning we went to New Life Church here in the Springs. For thosse of you who don't really know what New Life Church is, maybe you all remember the church shooting that happened in Colorado Springs a few months ago. They were putting on a small production called The Rock. It was very good! One thing that passtor Brady said during the play was about peter, and how he had betraid Christ, and the trials peter had to go through for Christ to build the rock in him. It was liike ther realization really came to me that through all of my doubts, trials, and heart ache that Jesus is trying to build the rock in me, the rock is HIM. Also, of all my mistakes, the horid things I have thought about God, and against Him. Just as His blood covered for peter, and can, and did cover for me, PRAISE HIM! Without His mercy and grace I would be sentanced to hell, but because of Him, I am Sentanced to Heaven! It is so good that the world isn't fair! If it was faire, I would be toast!

Then there was the part, right before Jesus rose, where the roman soldier went up to the tomb and nield down, I cried! I was able to come to the realization that no matter what I have done I am able to be clean through Christs blood. Not thata I didn't already know that, but the doubts and attacks. Jesus is awsome, kind loving and cairing, the way the play portraid Him interacting with the children, and people. It was very good.

What all went on in my heart reminds me of the MercyMe song, Hold Fast.

Then we were in this "leaving church trafic jam". We went to the Mast's house, where we practiced music some. That was a lot of fun! We wroked on the song I Am Free by the newsboys. Of course we sing it our own way. We made some great progress on it.

And now, I am at home, writting to you.

When I left the house, I was given a packet of hot chackolate by one of my little friends. Wow, Smart kid.

Keep your eyes on God, He loves you, remember His sacrifice, not only on easter, but every day of the year. Keep it in your sites, how much you need Him.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Some Quiet Time notes from the past week.

Well, as I mentioned in my last post I had some otes from my Qts. I only have about 20 miutes to write, but I will start on march 9th and move forward as quickly as possible.

John 17:1 Jesus wanted the Father to be glorified. HE was just getting ready to go to the cross, and He wated God to be glorified in it all. In His own death. He died to save humankid from there sin, to bring the Father glory. It rocks when people decide to serve God, it's like victory for Him, therefore bringing Him glory. As Matt Redman said, let the fire that fuels our missions be to brig God glory (may paraphraze). So I will continue to give glory to God for all the victories in my life, they are from Him, certainly not myself.

Onn March 12th I wrote about the apathy ad dicouragement that has been besetting me i my journal. Iwrote though that the night before, I had had a little bit of breakthrough. Even to the point where I didn't feel so bad about the expenditure of money on the MP3 player (which stilll hasn't arrived yet. A lot of things looked up that night, and the morning of the 12th.

Psalm 11:1 I really have to look and say "Do I really put my trust in Him? Or do I still worrie, ad wonder if I am being good enough?" Or have I will I can I do something to fall, not necisarily from salvation, but just plain fall. I have to trust Him entirely, because I have triedd before and failed, and the GIants keep on telling me time ad time again, Boy, You'll never win. But the voice of truth, that is God's voice, tells me to trust in Him.

Psalm 31:1 "In you I put my trust, O Lord. I need Your help for every aspect of my walk."

Psalm 41:4 "Be merciful unto me; heal my soul; for I have sined against thee." That can be hard to actualy say, I have sinned agaist You, yet I have, and I know it. Doing something right to just be right really makes it hard, cuz we think we are doing it, and then think we can do it. But I need Him, in this absolute state of dryness (and I know it could be worse, but aything less then flowing is dry) I need HIm so bad, yet, even whe all is flowing and well, all is roses, I need Him. I need Him. His Grace and Strength, to overcome, to cotinue to overcome, to hold gained ground. "Lord, I just can't do this onm y own, I need Your help."

Regarding Psalm 41:11 I wrote this in my joural:
I really wanted to get to this one this morning [writting it down, I readit the night before]. [having fealt] so... lost maybe? "By this I know that Thou favorest me, because my enemy doth not triumph over me." Look at all the help God has given me in overcoming strongholds in my life! He [is] so good! It wasn't me at all! And helping me stay out [even]! "I can't do it my ow at all, Lord. Thank You. I praise You Lord!

Well, I went over my 20 minutes, ad I want, need, to have a little time with God before I hit the sack.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

So much to say

wow! where do I start with everything that has been going on in my life the past couple of days! I had some good Quiet Time passages to share, and lots of activity. I think I will start with all the action.

This Friday I went up to see some great friendds of mine, practicaly family. It was fun, even the driving arround for several hours with Rachel and Sarrah looking for a place to rent the August Rush DVD. We never did find it. Finaly Matt found it.

SO Friday night That is what I did, I watched August Rush. And I really enjoyed it. Music grips me. Of course I believe that it doesn't come from the cosmos or radiate from every living being, but you have tolearn how to hear the sounds arround you, and the sounds in music, that you normally miss. I thought the story line was good, of course I don't condone... um... you know, uh... sleeping arround. But I do say it does happen, and when it does and the mother decides to keep the child it is a beautiful thing. Kepping the child. From there the story was great. The ending neede a little bit more fenis, but was still good.

SO Saturday I woke up early after staying up late last night and went filming. That was great, getting to see how some of it is done. Seeing the equipment, watching the directing and the camera angles come out. Just hanging out and having a good time, making jokes, trying to be sarcastic, which gets me into so much trouble, so isn't all that fun. Making new friends, which is awsome, seeing old friends, which is just all out great.

After all the filming (which took all day) we went to the noodle company to eat dinner, where I got to meat more people. People are great, at least nice ones.

Well, I am inspired in the musical realm, at least inspired to go on. It is what I want to do, weather I am a missionary to Africa, Mexico, or America. Weather I film, or just hang gutter. Whatever it is, I want to play music, and play it well.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Why do I watch the things I watch.

So I decided to do this series of why posts. Why did I decide to do a thing like that? I dunno. Good question. So this post I decided to do "Why do I watch the things I watch?" What triggered this, or in other words, why did I diced to write on this one.

This post gets sort of long, so please, stick with me.

The answer to that one is very simple this time. It is all in connection with the last three movies I watched. I guess I could through in a fourth one that I watched recently. Might as well add a fifth and... We could go on all day.

I'll start with actualy answering the main question. Finally, your saying. And then I will give a a little of an update for what else is going on, and then, I will delve into the movies themselves, very briefly going over a few basic points that I liked and didn't like, or whatever.

So, in answer to the question. There are many different variables, and I will try to touch on all of them without boring you to death (which I fear I have already done.) One is pure curiosity, did they do a good job? Are the graphics good? WHat is the story realaly about? The Aaction? Hoy about acting? WHat happens? HOw does it end? Etcetera, etcetera. This is the very heart of why I want to see the Golden Compass. This blends into the next one, did the trailer pull me in? A lot of times this is what piques my curiosity, the trailer looks good. And sometimes it doesn't even spark curiosity, just plain looks good, or funny, so I want to see the movie, I guess thisis actualy related to curiosity. Enchanted was that way, not as much curiosity. Then there are friends who tell me an aspect of a movie, or I want to see how they did something. Then there is when I am with friends, and they are going, or want to watch something. Ok, I could go on a long time, and it could bore you, as well as me.

So, the last however... oh, wait, what did I do today. Well, I went to work, finished the job we started yesterday and I feel like... well... At leats I wanted to finish it yesterday. Wish we could have. I was bummed yesterday when we didn't. Fealt... disapointed in myself. I also had to trim my beautiful long guitar fingernails yesterday. It is getting way to warm to wear gloves, and the nails would have only gotten snagged on things. Ok, back to today.

We went to the sports store today, and I looked at hockey sticks, and all sorts of fond memories started coming back. I gotta get backinto skating, but just for the fun of it and axersize.

Then we took the boys to the park to practice socker, or football as I like to call it sometimes. That was fun, since none of us know how to play. We are gearing up, you see, my boss got the wonderfull oportunity to coarch a six and under team, and has never even played it himself. You guessed it, lots of fun!

We love to get ourselves into scrapes, why do we do this? Ok, another why. Why do I get into scrapes? Later dudes.

Then I accidentily almost won a PINK ipod off of ebay. whew... that was close. BUt I did win the other mp3 player! And feel absolutely... well... how to put it... Yikes! I just clicked publish on accident! Ok, I can edit it. Such close calls in life anymore.

Back to how I feel about the auction I won. WHy am I so loose with money sometimes! What A doofus I am! I feell ike I got a good deal, yeah, but what good is it if it's not something I needed? It's not like I got it as a gift. Oh well, what's done is done, "God help me with my spending habbits."

Maybe that's my spending hobbits.

Anyway, I did find some great deals on skates on ebay, too. And I am waiting to see how the outcome is. I feel like that is better expenditure.

And now I am writting.

Ok, to the movies.

First there was Surfs Up. The previews made it look really funny. But it didn't quite live up to that. I found the style of naroration very unique, and interesting. Great concept, but also confusing. BUt, that could be because they lost my strong interest early on, or something. The humor was off, often. It wasn't a kids movie, not really, but to, um, whatever to be an adult movie. See, adults don't need off humor either. It wasn't really inteeligent, not that a lot of movies are. It did have it's funny parts though, and some parts I did like, but I won't be watching it again. In short, it wasn't worth my time, and I ask myself, "Why do I watch what I watch?"

Then there was the Inquiry, not half bad, for the style project it was. The romance was al little 80's, or 70's or something, real quick and dumb. like hello! You don't just meat aguy and kiss him for 60 seconds on the second day before you even are, like dating! Not that I would kiss even after dating. I might get...germs ;) I also didn't apreciate the way they stylized the story of Tabitha. I guess they were'nt really trying to styalize the story of Tabitha, since the girls other name isn't dorcas. I really liked brixus, or whatever the servants name was to the main character. The girl was cute, they just needed to add a lisp... LOL, JK. They could have added a wee bit more suspence or something to the secret mission side of it.

Then there was watter horse. Never saw the prievews, never had a person tell me how good it was. Just was dieing to see it! I wasn't disapointed. Acting wasn't bad, the story line moved well, the graphics were good (I have seen better).. It was, well... it was like it was fitting for some emotion at the end, and I almost let myself get my eyes wet a little. Ok, ok, I did!

And lastly I want to touch on Princes of Thieves. I would have thought it would have been cool if the girl would have maried the king, but it was ok how they did it, too. The history was a little mixed up. Robert of Loxley was every bit as much of noble blood as Maid Marion, from my reading. The fight scenes were a little bit lacking, not in blood, but tallent. I liked quite a few aspects of the movie though, when the portraid her growing particularly.

Well, that's about it. No band practice, yet.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Why do I ask Why?

Why do I say the things I say? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I write the things I write? Have the friends I have?


Ok, slow down matt, way down, one at a time. Why do I say the things I say? Recently I found myself on the Line... "But our keyboardest and drummer are only 12..." What am I thinking! I'm not thinking! Guys, honestly, I'm proud, yes, proud of those I play music with. One is that they put up with me, and my opinions. Two is that I really honestly think they ROCK! I can't think of a person I'd rather have play drums along with my guitaring right now than Abby. SHe has impressed me to no end with her speed and skill. And the keys? Whne someone can tell someone else what they want to hear, and that person will play it, that is awsome. I'm impressed with how fast Claudia took the basiks of what we were asking, and fit it in, and the ability to hear a melody. For the world, we may not be Beethoven, or Duncan Philips, or Elvis, but we are musicians, still. I say we look at the good, and forget any bad. Hey, we layed down a track, didn't we?


And this whole thing, everything, even Xanga, should be for GOD! The fun we have, the tears we cry, the friends we have. How? I don't always know.


We went to see Watter Horse tonight. It was good. I really liked it. Almost meritted a wet eye. Not that that is the judge for how good a movie is. Cars didn't wet an eye at all, and it was great. Neither did Incredibles, and it was better than Cars. Facing the Giants was like turning on a facet, and it is one of my favorites. Only girls can cry at movies??? HOW COME? HUH?


By the time I gott done writting this, You are Loved was over.


Why do I ask the things I'm ask? Why do I laugh at the things I laugh at? Why do I listen to the music I listen to? Draw the things I draw? Think certain things are pretty? Certain things, key word there, that doesn't include boys. All questions to be answered later.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Sky Falls Down...

I named this post Sky Falls Down for two reasons. One is because of the Third Day sang Sky Falls Down, The other is... well... below.

Our day in the studio.

It went very, off. The weather was really bad, and it took a long time to get to the studio. We got there, and stood arround for a little while, and then got a tour of the house (it is in a house). The we had dinner. After dinner the "older four members of our group sat arround and talked with the mixer and his wife. Those younger more spry ones of us went to the basement and played pool. We would have recorded, but couldn't. We finaly did decide to go into the studio and mess arround, then the "adults" came.

We practiced a little, but some of our berrings. But t he were some of us who were just... nervious I guess? It was alreaday getting really late. We layd a atrackc down of all of us finaly, and we sound a lot better in person. It was a little disccouraging, but I have to remember that two of our musicians are only 12. And that we only had 3 days of practice! We went from hardly being able to play together to tryingto record in three practices!

Some of us were a bit more descouraged, but I think some of us went in with way to high expectations. I did, I know, but was able to look at at least some of the bright side.

"May we play for You God!"

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Time has Come

Despite snow storms, the time has finaly come to head to the studio. "Lord, please bless this time, may our hearts be fille dwith praise to You, at all times even."

This has so got to be for Him.

A week of not enough practice

Well, as all of you sort of ever so loyal non fans know, I am to hit the studio for recording music... tomarrow. It is a long awaited day for me, and I am scaired, too. Also as you all know, this came as rather unexpected. We were able to "cram" in a tottal of three practices arround our bussy schedules. The first two went better than the third. I know I need to relax, view it as fun. (we really weren't ready for this, and we arn't to the leval yet). I AM pleased, and dthank God for the progress we have made! For where some of the musissians are at, we have got a great start! we may only come out of the other side of tomarrow with one song. But it will be something we can look at and see where we can improve, and spring board off of. We can do this without a day in the studio, but since we have the chance!

Tonight I went skating, again. It was bunches of fun... well the big long skillet song got a little anoying. But I enjoyed it all so much!

Well, I should sleep sometime tonight, I know I should.

Keep od in your sites, focus on Him, love HIm with all your heat, soul, and mind! And remember that HE is worthy of all glory, no matter what the circumstance may look like!

Love you all,
Matt