Thoughts from way past midnight

I was up late, again, like I shouldn't be. It's actualy past midnight, close to 2 am here. Sigh, I went way to long trying to hunt down a good set of audio boks and Bibles, but I finaly hung the computer up and pulled out the Bible. It is s important, yet I save my last little bit of time for it.

Anyway, I was reading in Psalm 67 when my mind wandered off, and I started thinking about love, and all the things I do and know to do. For example, I know the right songs to sing, and love to sing and play guitar, I know that the awsomest form f music is praise and worship, and that God should be the center of attention... But without love, I mean a true love, all my singing and strumming is like, well, sounding brass and tinkleing symbles. (No offense drummers). It's like a love song that was written to a girl the musician didn't even love. (ok, k, I know, there I go again, compairing the spiritual with the romantic). Anyway, I fealt like I should write about it here.

First Corinthians 13:13 says:
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
In chapter 12, verse 30, Paul says:
...and I will show you the most excellent way.

SO I mentioned my music, and equated it to sounding brass and tinkling symbles, like the gift of tounges. And dsay, here, in this very writing, I get things right, and what I'm saying here is true, I can be right without love, I can believe something is true just because it is (which isn't necisarily bad), but what if it is absolutely loveless? See, I believe this is in love, for God, I'm wanting to lve more, but whwat if I was just writing it because it was true, and didn't really want it, like it, or follow it, or want to follow it even? It would be almst like the gift of proffecy in II Cor: 13:2. Say I have lots of Biblical understanding, can answer the questions the best and dfastest, etc. I can tend to be that way, A lot og head knowledge. WHat isit without love? II cor 13:2 I am Nothing. It's wothless.

And the good things I do. Things that are truly good. I go and help the poore, or the orphans in africa (which I want to do), but why/ Is it love for them? God? Do I do somethings out of "duty"? Yeah, I bet. II Cor 13:3 I gain nothing.

I want t have love, in everything I do. I see so much that I need to get right, so many things that are out of place, but trying and stryving to get them right, without the love, is worthless. God wants a relationship, a lover, not an actor.

Think about it. All humans (that are normal) desire relationships, and there are traits that we like and admire in people, weather it be strength, tallent, beauty, inteligense, etc, etc. But we all find ourselves attracted to someone who actualy cairs and wants a relationship. The "perfect" person in the tallent department with no love would soon become very plastic to us, and we would long for a deeper relationship with that person.

Are we plastic with God? Do we do things "just because"? I do.

Hey, lets not focus on what things we're suposed to do, lets focus on WHO we're suposed to LOVE. Let's as God to help us, and I think that as we find ourselves wanting to love Him, we will find ourselves wanting to please Him. After all, you always wanna please your lover. ;)

Another interesting thing to think about, in regards to love, is the thing about loving ourselves, there's this song that plays on the radio that talks about that (Don't worry Carrie, I won't mention any names). Can we love other people if we don't love ourselves, probably not, but who cairs? I don't. Here's where it is truly at (excuse me, but I'm about ready to get really opinionated), Can we love if we don't understand, and know God's love? NO WAY! We can't even begin to love people in a grand way untill we understand God and His love for us.

Matt's late night ramblings.

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